well, i guess i’m trying to be nonchalant about it when i’m going to extremes to prove i’m fine without you but in reality i’m slowly losing my mind underneath the guise of a smile, gradually i’m dying inside friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly ‘cause i don’t want to reveal the fact that i’m suffering. so i wear my disguise ‘til i go home at night, then turn down all the lights and then i break down and cry.

— breakdown