i didn’t post at all on saturday. i feel so lost… oh well. all i do is bitch and moan about my boredom. i guess anyone who actually reads this thing is used to it by now.

ever since my boyfriend and i broke up, i’ve been feeling rather directionless. i know it’s ridiculous to need a love interest in order to feel a sense of purpose, but i think i need that security of having someone by my side. i think that’s what the problem was with victor: i could never feel that security with him. he’d always tell me he cared for me but never did anything to show me that he truly did. words are just empty shells if you have no actions to fill them up with.