the wind through my hair, the sun in my squinted eyes… how could i hate summer? when high school seems to be light-years ago and university doesn’t appear to be looming too close around the corner, how can i not be happy?

talking with alice today made me realize [again] how much i miss having that significant other. being single and independant is one thing, but being lonely and purposeless is another. i know, i know… one should feel good in their skin when single. this is a time to do things for myself, and no one else. instead of focusing on a partner, i’ve been worried about school relationships with teachers and students and anything else related to that. i’ve also been so occupied with provincials and final exams and the like. sometimes i’d rather not worry. sometimes i’d rather kick back and enjoy the sun with that significant other and leave all of my worries for the wind.

i find that after my last relationship, i’ve become a lot more introverted with the opposite sex. i’ve lost a lot of confidence with love (or whatever has come close to love for me) over the years. i’ve become jaded and secluded. i’ve lost the ablity to feel. it’s sad.

summer lovin’ ain’t going to happen with this emotionally-void girl. no way, no how.