I’m sitting at a study carrel at the library. (“Carrel” is kind of a funny word, eh? I don’t find that many…
March 2, 2008 What Am I Doing Here?
December 23, 2006
So, I am back from over a year-long hiatus. And, boy, does it feel weird to be writing here again. Mostly because…
Wordless
September 15, 2005
there used to be a time when i could find something to write about here. something usually trivial or inane or borderline…
Get Shorty
September 8, 2005
one of the things that freaks me out about getting older is shrinking. i mean, i’m not getting any taller; the only…
Under My Skin
August 17, 2005
you know how they say that some people have the skin of a rhino? well, i think i have the skin of…
driven
July 14, 2005
i have been avoiding this place like the plague because, every time i look at it, it reminds me of how little…
the same me
June 30, 2005
as much as i tell myself that i don’t care what people think about me, i’m constantly looking to impress people. especially…
i believe in yesterday
June 18, 2005
sometimes i really miss the intricacies of high school life. the ability to walk home from school with the boy you have…
merde!
April 15, 2005
l’enfer, c’est les autres….
just one of dem days
January 6, 2005
this is just one of those obligatory posts announcing my birthday. it’s not a big deal, really, it’s just my birthday. not…
hello, stranger!
December 16, 2004
i found out about futureme.org from nisa’s site, and decided to write myself a little letter. it will be delivered to me…
over the seas and telephone line
October 13, 2004
when i’m talking to someone whom i’ve never met over the phone (e.g., a telemarketer), i wonder if they can tell i’m…
whose page is this, anyway?
July 17, 2004
i watched an improv show the other day, and i really enjoyed it. i like people who can come up with witty…
careening down memory lane
June 30, 2004
i’m the girl who…was caught with her zipper down in second grade and cried.had chinadoll bangs that started from the top of…
mine ears!
June 23, 2004
i’m sitting here listening to my computer monitor emit a very high-pitched noise that has been penetrating my skull for about an…
little miss shy
April 25, 2004
i’m not sure how serious this is, but i recently noticed that i have mild anxiety attacks before i have to do…
ensembly challenged
March 21, 2004
i never quite know how to dress “sexy”. last night was my friend’s birthday shindig at a local club, and, despite my…
blackjack
January 6, 2004
in my early age of aching joints and tired eyes, i’ve already lost my sense of adventure. though, i believe i lost…
charge it
December 29, 2003
i only recently obtained my own credit card, which is probably one of the greatest inventions of mankind. right up there with…
it’s too late, baby
November 29, 2003
i’ve realized how late it is to take up a lot of things i wish i had when i was younger. i…
bowling for columbine
September 1, 2003
we may all eventually leave high school, but i don’t think high school ever really leaves us. here i am about to…
choppy
August 22, 2003
i failed. the story of my life….
water baby
August 13, 2003
i’m going swimming later on today, and i have to say how uncomfortable i am at the thought of it. anyone who…
beer goggles
August 5, 2003
i know this sounds insane, but i’m starting to understand why people enjoy drinking. i never really bought into the appeal of…
brake, gas, brake
July 2, 2003
i had my first driving lesson today. i’m slowly learning not to take offense to drivers who overtake me and sneer….
social casualty
June 29, 2003
i realized today how much my social skills have deteriorated. when the other party says something i don’t particularly like, i respond…
which witch is the real witch
June 23, 2003
i got into a conversation with my co-worker today about what i consider myself first and foremost: am i asian, female, or…
self-deprecation
June 10, 2003
i am coming to terms with my ugliness. and it ain’t pretty….
help, i need somebody
June 6, 2003
i feel like a different person. and i don’t think that’s necessarily a good thing….
on the road again
May 3, 2003
another fucking awesome game! last night, i discovered what it felt like to be a thirtysomething bachelor: i watched the hockey game…
the voice within
April 17, 2003
i wanted to break out into song the other day — during my exam, on the bus, on the street. i was…
this old world
March 17, 2003
my grandfather now uses a wheelchair. while i voluntarily remain confined in a psychological cage of my own making, he is forced…
startling revelation
January 3, 2003
it’s my birthday in three days, and only last night did i come to the realization that i have no control over…
walking contradiction
August 29, 2002
i find that i can be pretty two-faced at times. not in the mean and spiteful way, though. “two-faced” as in i…
kindred
July 2, 2002
reading charz’s entry for july 1 was like looking into a mirror, not only seeing my reflection but my past, as well….
enlightenment
June 19, 2002
i think the greatest feeling in the world is just to like what you’re doing. i’m not only speaking of jobs and…
no matter what
May 29, 2002
i know we aren’t supposed to care about being the best and competing with other people. i don’t want to be competitive,…
the politics of you
May 27, 2002
what exactly determines the type of person you are — or shall i say who? recently, i’ve been struck with the query…
life’s like this
May 15, 2002
pride is a strange concept. on one hand, it’s good to want to maintain personal and individual balance, but on the other…
where i want to be
February 17, 2002
i’ve made a lot of plans in my life. i’ve made plans about boyfriends, friends, schedules, and events. most of them transpire….
dwindling
January 13, 2002
the days are going by faster and faster now. i haven’t the time to react. it’s all downhill from here….
in fair verona
January 11, 2002
my gay english TA played baz luhrman’s version of shakespeare’s romeo & juliet for us in discussion class today. so i’ve been…
good luck, crazy girl!
January 6, 2002
it’s my nineteeth birthday today! who thought the day would ever come when i’d finally be of legal age to drink, smoke,…
headache
January 3, 2002
at times when the world appears as a bloody dream-state which cannot be escaped, the best thing to do is run around…
life’s a show
November 22, 2001
ever begin to change in your room, but then get the feeling that somebody’s watching? ever realize that your fly was unzipped…
pascal’s wager
October 24, 2001
The philosopher and mathematician Blaise Pascal (1623-62) made what many regard as the first decision analysis as part of an argument for…
straining to hear
October 6, 2001
every night i would plop myself down on this moldy, old, green chair and think of something interesting to write about. sometimes…
confuzzled
October 3, 2001
i guess you can see from my past posts that i’ve been going through what you would call an “identity crisis” lately….
something like a phenomenon
October 2, 2001
i think i’m lonely. i have my friends and i have my family, yet i am the loneliest being you will ever…
spun in spite
September 27, 2001
i dyed my hair at the beginning of last year. and i decided never to dye it again. there’s something about the…
lost in all
September 25, 2001
i’m having problems. self-conscious problems — the worst kind. i’m not cute enough. i’m not sexy enough. i’m not smart enough. i’m…
in my skin
September 20, 2001
ever feel like you can be replaced in the blink of an eye, with no one questioning or even noticing? ever feel…
did you ever think
May 21, 2001
she, she screams in silence a sullen riot penetrating through her mind waiting for a sign to smash the silence with…